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Jenna
04 August 2013 @ 02:47 am
I don't really know where this is coming from, or if this is even going to make sense, but after I saw a Harry Potter video on my Tumblr dashboard, I felt the need to write it. It wasn't so much the video that made me cry (Though it's by the amazing KatrinDeep so I would recommend it), but the stories people had added to the reblog. Of how much Harry Potter meant to them, how it'd saved their lives, and I couldn't really relate because I don't think it's ever saved my life, though it did mean a lot to me.

And then I saw someone say "JK Rowling got me through some of the hardest times". And I burst into tears.

I was at a McFly concert on the 20th July. I can't remember where, Birmingham or Manchester or somewhere. And I was torn because while I was excited for the concert, I wouldn't be at a bookstore at midnight to by the Deathly Hallows. So it was mine and my mum's priority to get the book the second we got to the train station. And lo and behold, WHSmiths had plenty of copies.

And from start to finish, I didn't put that book down for anything. Not as I got on the train, not being disturbed by people talking to me, or phoning me, or anything.

Not even as my uncle called to say he couldn't get a hold of my nan. Not as he called to say he was going to break down the door. And not as he called and told us she was dead. But I think by that point, it wasn't about the book, or needing to finish it, or needing to know everything. It was because that book was my lifeline. If I could keep reading it and reading it, I didn't have to process anything. If I could read it, and throw everything into reading it, just holding it, then I wouldn't have to think about anything else.

And then I got to the end, hours later (or days later, I can't really remember the timescale), and I just sobbed and sobbed and sobbed. Over everything that I'd lost in that one day. My childhood was gone in so many ways - Harry Potter was over, and the woman who took care of me, who was like a second mother to me, was gone as well.

But I don't think I would've gotten through that day nearly as well if it wasn't for Jo. If that book hadn't been there for me to cling on. My memories of that day are foggy at the best, but my clearest memory is being on the train, knowing the phone call my mum got, and just getting up, and moving to the one empty seat in the entire carriage, curling around myself, reading, and crying.

Like I said, I don't even know what this post is for. I think it's just cathartic, being able to write it all out once and for all. I don't really know what else to say other than, thank you Jo. Thank you so much.
 
 
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Fever (The Chemical Garden, #2)Fever by Lauren DeStefano

My rating: 5 of 5 stars


Just as I was with the first book in this series, there was no way I could put it down until I'd read it all. In fact, sometimes I had to stop myself reading just so I didn't rush through it, because I didn't want it to end. The drifting in and out of dreams blurs the lines of fantasy and reality for the readers just as much as it does Rhine, and DeStefano yet again does an excellent job at describing locations in so much detail that it's not hard at all to imagine them.

The last few chapters are something I'd been waiting for since I finished the last book, but didn't think I ever would've seen, and the revelations were also things I never would've imagined. Words don't even begin to cover how much I love this book, and how excited I am for next week when I can begin reading Sever.



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A Big Hand For The Doctor (Doctor Who 50th Anniversary E-Shorts, #1)A Big Hand For The Doctor by Eoin Colfer

My rating: 3 of 5 stars


While I didn't grow up with the first Doctor, I have seen some of him, and more than enough to get the feel that the characterisation in the book was a little off. While I could hear Susan's voice clearly in my head, the Doctor's was difficult to find, because he didn't seem like himself. He's not a man I can imagine ever reading Harry Potter, or having any kind of an opinion on popular culture, and when he spoke of his future selves, it irritated me slightly as I wouldn't think he'd know of them, and the line that he sometimes imagined them didn't settle well with me, either.

But the story itself was quite sweet, well put together, and a brilliant link to Peter Pan. As I've said, there are things I would've changed, but for a quick read, and good value for money, I would say it's worth checking out.



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How do you carry on writing a story you don't feel passionate about any more? I wrote about a really good idea I had, one that I really felt like writing, one that I was determined to write. It went well for a while, I was writing regularly daily, I knew where it was all going, but now....

My characters are irritating me. One of the two main characters feels creepy and uncomfortable to me, and given that he's the love interest of the other, I don't feel right putting them together. The other main character? Feels overly naive, which yes she's supposed to be, but it's bordering on the point of complete stupidity.

I opened up the document this evening, and it actually felt like writing any more on it felt like a chore rather than something I wanted to do. It's not my writing I hate, but I am hating the story in itself - but it's nearly halfway complete, so to throw it all away feels wrong. I know some of you are writers on here, so I was wondering if anyone had any advice?
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Doctor Who: The Angel's KissDoctor Who: The Angel's Kiss by Justin Richards

My rating: 3 of 5 stars


Obviously riding of the interest of Melody Malone coming from the Angels Take Manhattan, I was expecting something interesting to read, but what I got instead was simply something to pass an hour of my time. In short, it wasn't too exciting. I was expecting something more along the lines of a companion to the episode, but instead it was a completely separate story. It did amuse me in places though, and the tone was all very in the style of the supposed author, but I feel like very little happened, with no solution at the end of it all.



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Doctor Who: Night of the HumansDoctor Who: Night of the Humans by David Llewellyn

My rating: 3 of 5 stars


It was definitely an interesting read, but I did find it a little difficult to get into at first. I didn't particularly empathise with any of the characters aside from Amy and the Doctor, obviously, but I did feel incredibly bad for the humans that were living on the planet. The ending I feel was expected, with those that you thought would survive doing so.

This book very much reminded me of The Doctor's Daughter, with the two sides, and being influenced by those generations before them. And I also thought the characterisation was spot on with the Doctor at the very least, with his emotions at the end of the book. Amy could go either way, I felt, but perhaps that could have something to do with me initially having some difficulty trying to pinpoint where in Amy's timeline the events took place. There were some touching lines that I liked a lot, but on the whole, it was an okay book, but it could have been better.



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My Name Is MemoryMy Name Is Memory by Ann Brashares

My rating: 4 of 5 stars


I have to say I haven't had a book in a while that I've been unable to put down quite as much as this one. The whole concept of the story is fascinating to me, and makes you ponder the existence of past lives. Though there were some plot holes that I hoped would be explored, and never were, and the ending was too sudden and abrupt, also. I hope there is a follow up, because that didn't feel like a satisfying ending for me.



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For the first time in a very, very long time, I have felt like writing. Not fanfiction, or roleplaying paragraphs, but raw, original fiction. It's a relief, because over the past few months, I've thought my dreams of writing an original novel were all but evaporated. But wanting to write some short oneshots to get over a little writer's block I was having, I made use of Writing.com's Story Prompts, and within a few clicks, I saw a prompt that opened a tightly locked door in my head, and a story all but fell out of it. I've only drafted the prologue of it so far - I have other scenes sketched out, but nothing I can fit into a chronological order at the moment. I just need to have faith in myself that this is possible, that I can do it, and I can do it to an impressive standard that I can be proud of.

I don't want to reveal anything about my story because I think it's a little like announcing a pregnancy before the second trimester - a bad omen. I'm not going to be coy or talk about it at all really, I just want to get on with it, and present a finished product... eventually. I know that this is going to be a slow progress, it's certainly nothing I'd work on to complete for NaNoWriMo or anything, because I wouldn't want a time limit. In my attempts at writing original stories before, I've jumped the gun - I've posted to Fiction Press, desperate for reviews to feed my ideas, and when none have come, I've thrown it aside. And that's sad, because I know both Scratches and Disfunctional suffered because of that - they're both stories I hold close to my heart, especially Scratches, but I know neither will ever be completed - they're scraps of ideas seven years old, and I don't have the love for them that I should do. I want this one to be different.
 
 
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Consequences (Torchwood, #15)Consequences by James Moran

My rating: 2 of 5 stars


This is an interesting book, but it did take me the longest time to get into it. The Baby Farmers is based in Victorian times, which was dull to me, as it didn't include any of the characters I loved the most, so I found myself not caring. But the great thing is how all the stories link together to bring you to the eventual ending, where you realise that though these are all separate stories, they all play a part in a much larger one.

Virus was my favourite, and though I liked The Wrong Hands, I did find it a little obvious. Kaleidoscope was good too, but I found the ending irritating and unfinished.



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